I being defeated once again straight to my face , all the tiny hope , the uncertain and wishes ..
I m tired of given false hope .As I jst hoping hope shouldnt come on me , it was torturous to have slight fake hope. its painful to carry on ..if hope given 10 times sweetness , it comes with 100 times destruction ..
Today , I saw the post straight to my face while i still remains a little hope .I can feel the heat blush through my face .Finally i can get a conclusion before it went too far. stop fantasizing , stop dreaming .. I am tired of these mind guessing game .. eugene's story make me givin up even more .and yeah god .. U make it instant as what I think I want it to be .. perhaps this is what it should be 长痛不如短痛 。。 It feels like a strong ache injection pierce right through my heart , I know it gonna be pain .. but at least it wont ate me up day by day , aching a lil day by day .. Finally I know i should stop trying because there is no more If . I should buck up and focus.
I dont blamed but its just too painful .. I am just crying for a real hope , can I have one? I cant take these anymore ..false hope are tiring and torturous .. god bless him and for another him , please dont make him as torturous as me . he should be let go ..
